In my head, if you had been there, I wouldn't have broken down and cried and told the whole sob story and I wouldn't have told everyone but Chloe to leave me alone and don't look at me because you would have hugged me. Also, in my head, you've heard all the cute songs I love and you know just how to treat me. In my head, tonight you would have kissed me.
In my head, you snuck out just now and I walked out the front door and you held me until I got positive about going to Colorado tomorrow. In my head, you made me not dread the moment I turn out the light and think about last Summer and then sleep and wake up and have to go to Colorado and leave everyone for a week. In my head, when I get back, we spend every day together, enjoying the last week of Summer.
In my head, you didn't go on a date last night. You asked me on the date and we had a grand time and then I wouldn't have even cried tonight because I would have had you.
In reality, we talk a lot about hanging out, but it never happens.
In reality, you had a lifeguarding party.
In reality, you don't read my blog or listen to my music [unless I tell you to].
In reality, I told you basically what happened and now you're asking me if I miss him or the feeling and I'm feeling so stupid to tell you the feeling because what if he finds out it's because I want the feeling with him?
In reality, I don't actually make much sense.
In reality, I am being totally negative about going to Colorado tomorrow. I need to just face that I am going and I need to make myself believe I'll have a good time because I will.
In reality, I need to re-sheet my bed.
[in reality, I always blog when I need to do the above.]
Also, I feel like I need to say something about me being so lucky to live where I do, because it gives me such amazing friends. Some have friends that are snooty and rude and aren't true friends and it reminds me that I have the best friends in the world. Please don't forget me this week.
love laura.
p.s. i love owls and maybe you too.
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