Showing posts with label first kisses. Show all posts
Showing posts with label first kisses. Show all posts

Thursday, May 31, 2012

An Anniversary, of sorts.

Do you remember your first kiss? Have you had your first kiss? Was it everything you wanted it to be? Do you remember it fondly? Or if you haven't had one, what's your big dream? How do you imagine it?









Two years ago, today, a boy texted a girl. They liked each other, this boy and this girl.
The girl was young, younger by about a year and a half, and she was naive. Naive and innocent.
So she biked to her favorite park, it was eight o'clock at night, he was there waiting.
So they talked, they laughed, it got cold, they sat together, he put his arms around her because she was shivering.
But she wasn't shivering too badly.
The rest is history. Well, just the middle part, the part that's hard to say with words and makes me blush.
But when it got really dark, and when it was past time to go home, they said goodnight and goodbye,
then spent a few extra stolen moments.
I rode home on my bicycle, I didn't even notice riding through sprinklers and laughed when I realized I was all wet.
I had a big, goofy grin on my face the rest of the night.
This time, two years ago, I was still awake, texting that boy, still on cloud nine from my first kiss.

You know, it was sweet. He was sweet, that night, that week. I wouldn't call him sweet after that week, but that week, he was sweet, and I couldn't have asked for a better first kiss.

Two years later, I'm not as innocent. I'm not as naive. I'm a bit more experienced, I'm a better biker. I've learned a lot, but I've also forgotten a lot. I don't miss him, Blaze I mean. But I miss the young love, my first love, even if it was very bad for me and myself and it took a long time to take out the poison.
I miss... I miss.
I don't know anything. It's been two years and I still don't know anything,
how will I make it alone?

Anyway. Two years ago, I had my first kiss. It's been two long, short years. I remember that day.
Do you?

love always, laura elizabeth.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Can we dance, real slow? Can I hold you, real close?

in the words of Kelsey:
dhgfhgkjhlk huoughhjfgdhydesteasfghfhjkgkjuh

in the words of Addy:
"and then he kissed me."


in my own words:

...what the ell-hay just happened tonight?!








Just some examples of what's racing around in my mind:
ALKLSNLKNGLHWIUETOIE
why did he kiss me?  did he want to? does he still? was I okay?
am I being cliche?
holy hannah freak oh my gandhi
what's going to happen now?
has he told anyone? does he want to tell anyone? is he happy he did it?
is he happy it was me?
OMGOOMGMOGMOG
does he not want me to tell anyone, like blaze?
how does he feel about it?
what does he think of me? how has he felt of me?
why me?
oh my cheese he had his pick of girls that would've gladly been his first and he picked me
WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN NOW?!
am I being obsessive?
...am I being OVERLY obsessive?
oh my gandhi, tonight happened...??

with literally all the love in my heart,
laura.

disclaimer:  I wrote this last night, right after.  Due to a loss of internet [those are becoming far more frequent for my taste] it wasn't able to be posted that moment.  These are all the words from last night, however.