Time block.

Time Block (n): Refers to a long absence in between blog posts, not due to lack of things to write about, but to the amount of time in a day.

...And I doubt I'll ever let myself slow my life down to get over it. Sorry, those who say they diligently check my blog.

I cause a lot of problems. Surprise.

Where to begin?  I answered Mitchell on March...31. Kelsey and I went to his house and she helped me put glow in the dark stars ("YES") on his ceiling. It looks way sweet, I gotta say.

Footloose...was incredible. The absolute most incredible thing I've ever been through. What I remember most, is every night, right before the show, we would do prayer circles. While whoever wanted to was saying the prayer, I looked at every single face in the circle. Without fail, every night, it brought me to tears. Closing night I didn't even get halfway through the circle. These people...they are the best people, basically. We don't all like each other, but when it comes down to it, we've shared something deep and more spiritual than I can explain. J is incredible. It's all incredible.

Spring Break was, in a word, the BEST. I wasn't home any of the nights until midnight (except one night, because I got moody). I got burned (it's tan now, yay!). I reconnected with one of the best people I know--shout out to Justyn! Love you girl--and now she's in my prom group--yay!! It was great to remember what an awesome person she is. I hung out with both my best friend and my boyfriend all break. Today kind of sucked, though. There's school tomorrow. I didn't do everything I said I was going to last week (or last night, for that matter). Ohhhhh wellllll. When I convince myself that Summer's right around the corner, good grades don't seem as important. (Randomly got a four oh again last term, though. I literally do not know how it happened.)

Got a prom dress. It's really, really beautiful. I'd put a picture on, but I'm scared Mitchell would see it before the big day. Did I mention it's on my birthday? I'm trying to convince my mom to pay for me and two friends (Mitchell and Kelsey, I'm sure) to go to Lagoon after school the day before, because all I asked for for my birthday were old school roller skates...She told me she's already done with my birthday, which makes me suspect she got way more than I need, as usual. Oh well. We'll see.

Unless you haven't gotten it from this post, my life is amazing. I love it, even with all the drama (mostly that I create for myself) and the homework (although--why stress about it when I know I'm not going to do it?....this might be a very bad term for me) and the missing of important things (if you can find my $50 or my kindle fire, please please please let me know... I'm really freaked out about it). My friends doubly make up for all of it. I just hope every day of Summer will be like Tuesday this past week (minus the sunburn).

Anyway. Happy school tomorrow. T-minus two weeks until birthday. T-minus six weeks until Summer.

WE CAN DO THIS.

love always, laura elizabeth.

Now that that landmark's passed...

One year ago today...

The following poem was written earlier.
Before I got cheered up, obviously.

Nostalgia.

what wasn't felt at five months

comes back twice at a year.

a soul undeserving,

a tear too often cried

due to the ability of life that

changes faster than we know.

"it's all for the best"

Yes, God gets us through,

the suffering turns to achievement,

but not everyone forgets that

God sent it to us first.

-May 31, 2011

Of course, I was able to get over it.

It's been a year.

I know I'm over it.

I didn't spend all day thinking about it.

[neither did he, I'm sure.]

[I actually doubt he knows what today is.]

[but it's fine.]

I've made new friends,

I've moved on,

Life goes on.

I'm done with him,

because he is no improvement in life.
I don't need him.

Whether I have another summer romance this year

or not,

At least I know that I am independent enough

to not.

Thank you to everyone who has helped me.

I'm sorry to everyone who has helped me.

This summer will be different.

However...

I never got a hug today.

Which made me sad.

But I'm still independent.  No worries.

Love, Laura.



Could Not Be More Excited.

Now, when did I deserve such good friends?

-miss kelsey, I just got your post-it note. You're so beautiful

and I am so much more blessed than you.

I did have a good day. (:

-dear sunshine, I could not be happier to be happy.

thank you for standing by me when I

most needed it.

-miss justyn, I love you.  Even though sometimes I feel

like I don't belong in the role of

one of your best friends.

-miss dani, we will get together soon. no matter

if you can or can't.

And many more who contribute to my over all contentment--

All my love, Laura.

Being single doesn't mean you're weak, it means you're strong enough to wait for what you really deserve.

Yes, it's been over a week since I last posted.
Yes, it's because my netbook hasn't been working.
...get off my back.

Right now, I feel an overwhelming sensation to cry,

laugh, scream,

giggle, smile, love, kiss,

die,

and stretch.

I'm done with CRTs.  Tomorrow's my mini-musical.

[where did the time go?!]

All there is left of Junior High is:

Mini Musical

"Variety" Show

5K

LAGOON DAY

Yearbook Day

Five Days.  Do you know until what?

My Biggest Problem: Being Confident.

Do you know how long it's been since I was last held?  Not hugged by a friend, but held?  I don't need boys.  I am independent.  But it would be nice, sometimes.
Love, Laura.

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not.

I talked to a self-proclaimed slut last night.

And he managed to cheer me up again.  Thank you.

But really... Who calls a girl he doesn't know "babe" the first time they talk?

Love, Laura.

It's not where you take things from, it's where you take them to.

Well that took a lot longer than it should have.

But it's fine.

What do you think?

A shoutout to my best girlfriends:

Stevie, Justyn, Kelsey..... Many more.  But for specific reasons those are there.

Love, StarFish.

Next time, I'll be braver. I'll be my own savior... I will stand on my two feet.

ADELE. <3 <3
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In my many years, almost none of the guys I know I consider constant.  Besides one, no guy I've known, talked to, or even loved, has remained the same person to me for the length of our friendship.  There is only one guy I can always count on to be the same, every day, in all my classes.  So even though you don't read my blog, this post is for you, Eugene.

^^ Pretty much my favorite.

Thank you for everything.

Love, Yoyo.

You make me jealous of the me in my daydreams.

My new decision:  I will become a complete social outcast.  Why?  Because I can't stand stupid, vapid, manipulative girls or vulgar, oblivious, manipulative boys.

My newer decision:  I will NOT become a complete social outcast.  Why not?  Because I could never live without my friends.

I've been talkin' with a boy named Jake lately.  He's Voldemort's best friend (but it's fine).  He likes to pretend he cares about nothing and he likes to never show emotion.  I've been working on that.  I told him about my new decision and he said he was already a social outcast.  I don't believe it, not fully.  I talked about my happy world where only the people I love existed and he said he could be happy in a world of just him.  I don't believe that either.  No one could live forever with no one else.  But he is dead set on being alone.  It's sad.  I don't think anyone should ever be alone like that.  I don't think he fully realizes what it'd be like.

I've also been working on my friendship with an amazing, beautiful girl (see tags) that, a few months ago, fell into a crowd that....how can I put this?... is one of the reasons of my new decision.  But she still contributed to my newer decision.  Talking with her, and seeing her last Saturday, it reminded me why we had been friends in the first place, and I miss her so much.  She says she wants a break from those friends, but I don't really know how it will happen when they are never seen apart.  Love, I know you read my blog, and I want you to know I'll always be there for you when you need it.

Sorry this post doesn't belong in this tab.  I just wanted to show some reasoning behind my two, contradicting decisions.  And I had to include a shoutout to the lovely girl in the above paragraph, because .... Just because.  Thank you to ALL my friends for not being stupid, vapid, and/or manipulative.

So much love (because only people I love read my blog),

StarFish.

Post Script:  This was actually Thursday, May 12.  Blogger is being stupid.  The post under this was today (Friday the Thirteenth).

Cardigans in a Camera Case.

What a beautiful day. <3

"Love is like infinity. You can't have more or less infinity, and you can't compare two things to see if they're "equally infinite". Infinity just is, and that's the way love is too."

Love your friends.  Trust your friends.  Spill all to your friends.

I love friends.

So much love,

Laura.

PS, who knew Elephanto still read my blog?